My not so little boy has made it to high school. He practiced football and conditioned hard all summer in the 95 degree heat with 80% humidity to make the varsity team at a local private prep school. I am proud to say that as a freshman, he is playing second string linebacker (#47). This means Friday night lights for this family every week, and man, we are loving it. He also got her permit and is driving. I have to be totally honest and say that he’s already driving better than me but that’s really not saying too much (I’m not the best driver in the world). He has signed up for some exciting, yet hard classes at his new school. Classes are underway and he is tackling them head on. We are beyond excited and thankful to God for the amazing opportunity that our son has at this new school. The sky is the limit and we are beyond proud of is dedication, hard work and passion. I have no doubt that he will go very far. Football, driving, and a brand new school; it’s going to be a great year!
Look who’s 15! Not even sure how this happened. When I hug him, my head rests on his chest. He has become a young man overnight.
We have entered the cave phase where he wants to be alone in his cave (room) playing video games. My only complaint at this stage is that I miss him. I miss him a lot. I miss his laugh, his smile and his amazing sense of humor. This kid is hilarious and can make me laugh like no other; well like one other. He’s just like his dad. He is hilarious to the core with an incredibly sweet heart. I am so incredibly proud to be his mom. He is the most amazing boy, ahem, I mean young man.
Happy birthday, Trey! I can’t wait to see what your high school years bring. I love you more than words can say.
I have to apologize upfront for the lengthy post. If you’re bored, read on. (pictures below)
I know I have been MIA from the blog for a while now. Life has been quite crazy lately. To be perfectly honest, 2015 has been a “B”. Life is hard. Life is difficult. And sometimes life just plain sucks but on the flip side there are always bright spots and things to be grateful for.
You always hear that when you are pushed out of your comfort zone and endure many trials, this is when God can do the most work. All I can say is that God must be doing something big. I have no idea what, but something big. Life is hard. Life is tough. It just is. If we allow ourselves to be swayed by our circumstances, we will most certainly exist on a roller coaster of emotions. I try to reside above my circumstances and see my life from God’s point of view, but I fail miserably all the time. I’m learning and trying to allow God to mold and shape me along this journey; to become the person that He wants me to be. It’s only April but I’ve learned many life lessons this year, and particularly two lessons stand out to me at this moment and time. First, you have to look at your blessings. If you’re busy being thankful for what you have, you have no time for complaints (I fail at this often – just ask my husband). Second, is to rise above your circumstances and view your life from God’s point of view. It’s difficult but when you do this, that issue that seemed like the biggest thing in the world, becomes only a small blip on your map of life.
Life has been crazy; some things good, some things bad, some things horrible and probably everything in between. Here are a few; my mom’s tragic car accident with a roller coaster of life and death moments, the long continual journey to her recovery, my Granny becoming sick twice, my Granny finally passing away, celebrating my daughter turning 18, celebrating my mom’s 59th birthday (which we weren’t sure we’d get to do), planning my daughter’s senior prom, planning for her high school graduation, planning a graduation trip and trying to land a huge 3 year long technology project at work (in which I am leading).
The topic of my mom; where do I even start? It is been miraculous, yet devastating. I have in some ways become a back up caregiver, supporter and mother to her this year and will continue to do so for as long as it takes (probably years). This area can and does easily become a big roller coaster of emotions but I am forever grateful to God for saving her life and slowly brining her back to us. I will say that celebrating her 59th birthday was the most special birthday celebration of all because, honestly, three or four months ago I wouldn’t have thought it would be possible. Then there’s my dad; my poor sweet dad. His life has flipped upside down and inside out. He had to leave his job, sell several properties, fight with insurance (daily), move across the country, take over the rental business, start paying all the bills and biggest of all has had to become the caregiver for my mom. The crazy thing is that he does all of these things simultaneously. He has always been the rock of our family and he still is but my brother and I have been there to help hold him up when he just can’t go anymore. He’s giving it all he has in an extremely difficult situation. As I tell him weekly, “I’m not concerned about mom. She’s coming back. I’m concerned about you.” (posting daily on her CaringBridge site)
My Granny. Oh, my sweet Granny. I’m not ready to talk fully about this yet but when I am, you’ll most likely see a blog post about it. I will state it simply like this. She was more than a granny. I was a daughter to her and she was a mother to me. I meant the world to her. We had a one of a kind special relationship. I have her wedding ring on my finger as I type this post and every time I look at it I cry. There hasn’t been a day that has gone by since Easter that I haven’t cried over losing her. She is by far the closest person to me that I’ve ever lost.
In all of this darkness, there’s the bright spots in my life. I get to watch my little girl turn into an adult, plan prom, pick out a dress, witness all those last moments of her high school career, plan for her upcoming graduation, plan an exciting graduation trip to celebrate, pick a college, pick a major, and plan her future. How exciting this has been. The excitement and joy on her face makes everything better. Yes, there are many difficult things happening this year, but on the flip side of that, there are all these exciting moments that I am so blessed to get to be a part of. This is the biggest, most monumental year Danica has ever had. I am loving every minute of it. These are all lasts to experience and I plan on being there for every one of them. For me personally, it is emotional for yet very exciting at the same time. I can’t think about all if it too hard because I will cry. I can’t believe we have reached this moment in her life. I feel like she should still be that sweet little sassy southern girl with a twang in her voice. I cannot wait to see what her future holds. There is no doubt in my mind that she will do amazing things.
Then there’s work. I never really talk about work on the blog but this year is a big year. My manta last year was that 2015 would be a big year for me (without my mom’s accident happening) due to the launch of this project, Danica graduating high school and going off to college. I work in technology for a local non-profit. This project is three years in the making and it is huge. We are literally replacing the entire technological infrastructure of the organization. God is in this and I am certainly trusting in Him.
When I reflect on everything that my life holds at this moment in time, I can easily get overwhelmed. What I have to remember is that God has a plan. Only He knows the big picture. I’m learning to take each day, one day at a time, which has been a monumental lesson for me as I am a dreamer and a planner. Honestly, for my own sanity, I have no choice but to operate this way and it works. Life is short and fragile. In a moment it can be flipped upside down. The people you love the most won’t be there forever. Your children will grow up fast and move on with their lives. Soak up every moment of this day. Let the ones you love know how much you love them. This may be the only opportunity you have to do so. Enjoy each and every moment with your children because before you know it, they will no longer be living under your roof.
All I can say is this. Live for today. Life is short.
Here are a few pictures of life lately.
My sweet Danica turned 18 this past week. I cannot even describe my very fragile emotions about this occurrence, but we certainly cannot stop time. All we can do is enjoy the moment that we are given. We are only guaranteed today. So, because of this fact and because 18 deserves a big celebration, Dee and I played hooky from school and work and spent the day playing. We went to the beach, had a nice lunch and got manicures and pedicures. It was certainly a day well spent. I am so incredibly blessed that not only do I get to be this beautiful person’s mother but I get to be her friend. I just love spending time with my Danica.
The celebrating didn’t stop there as we decided to do a cookout at my brother’s house this past weekend to celebrate this monumental birthday. We were able to get my dad there as well. It certainly wasn’t the same without my mom (it never is), but I think it was nice for everyone to step back, relax, actually smile and laugh a bit and celebrate this special day.
Well, Dee, this is it. You’re officially an adult. I hope and pray that I am still the one that you run to with anything and everything. As we embark upon college, this will certainly be key. You came into this world 18 years ago to a newly turned 21 year old with no clue what to do. You radically changed my life and I wouldn’t have it any other way. You have blessed me beyond measure and you continue to do so everyday. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without you. You were are my little girl and no matter how old you get. That will never change. I love you to the moon and back!
*Sorry for the disjointed post. It is sort like my emotions these days. Thanks for following along. 🙂
Today, 18 years ago, my life was forever changed. Dee, my life is simply better because of you. You have brought more joy to me than I could have ever imagined possible. You are sweet, kind, loving compassionate, fun and just all around awesome! I am so incredibly proud to be your mom. Thank you for all that you are and all that you bring to my life. Happy 18th birthday! I love you with all my heart.
Also, I’m now officially the parent of an adult. I AM OLD!
Today this kid is 14. It’s so hard to believe. In the past year he’s grown nearly a foot in height. It still freaks me out when I call him on the phone and hear a deep voice on the other end. It seems like he should still be this little blonde haired boy in the picture. He has the kindest and sweetest heart and I’m so proud of the young man that he is becoming. Happy birthday, Treyman! I love you with all my heart.
My daughter’s favorite place in the world is Disney. So, naturally wanted to go there to celebrate her 17th birthday. It worked out perfectly because I already had a conference scheduled at a Disney resort. I have to admit that the previous trips were just mediocre. Honestly, we try to pack way too much into one day, which leads to complete exhaustion and frustration. This time was different. I feel like for the fist time we had an actual “Disney experience” and I truly believe it had almost everything to do with the hotel. We stayed at the Disney’s Yacht Club Resort. The hotel was beautiful and the fact that it was within walking distance to Epcot helped, but the biggest selling point was the pool. The pool went on for days and had a sand bottom. There was also a massive water slide. Not just any slide. It was a water slide that you’d only see in water parks.
We did Magic Kingdom on the first day. It was crazy and crowded like always but with the new magic bands (brilliant idea) and fast pass, it made for a great time. My daughter wanted to eat at the Be Our Guest restaurant which is always booked but they now offer a fast pass option to eat there. Another brilliant idea, Disney! That experience was phenomenal.
We did Epcot the second day. I haven’t been to Epcot in at least 15 years and had very low expectations for this trip based on what I remember from years ago. I have to admit, I was completely wrong. We had a blast. I absolutely loved seeing all the countries and the food that each had to offer. What a pleasant surprise. Epcot didn’t have a ton of rides but the experience was amazing. Loving the experience over the rides these days; does that mean I’m getting old? Maybe.
Happy birthday Dee. I love you to pieces!
As you’ve already guessed, we spent my daughter’s 17th birthday in Disney. This worked out really well because I was already going to be at a Disney resort hotel for a work conference. This meant that I was in Disney for two days and three nights, then at a packed work conference for two days, and then back to work with an overloaded schedule. Don’t get me wrong, the celebration was great. It was probably the best Disney trip yet. But, the bottom line is that I’m exhausted. I’m leading a massive technology project that is kicking into high gear specifically this week and I’m exhausted. Did I mention that I’m exhausted???
So, that means no Disney post today, probably not tomorrow and maybe not even this week. It is going to take some time to get through the nearly 400 pictures that were taken on the trip.