I apologize in advance for this deep post as well as for not posting here in a while. What is reflected (no pun intended) below is the reason behind the lack of activity here on my blog.
As I lay here, I look over at the clock and its 1 am. This is quite unusual for me. See, I am never one to have trouble sleeping. This year has been different. 2015 was expected to be a monumental year for me without my moms tragic accident and without losing my precious grandmother. As we creep into the eighth month of the year, I am tired. I am worn out. I am stressed. I feel my body breaking down. I feel like I’m getting sick. And the big stuff this month hasn’t yet begun. Four days from now, I help my daughter move out of my house for the very first time and into a new college life. My son transitions in two weeks into to a brand new high school. Later this month, I launch the largest work project of my entire life (three years in the making) and definitely the largest project my company has ever seen. I am losing my boss and mentor at the end of this month which means a transition to a new boss. I am tired and there is more to come. I have worked tirelessly this year to balance my life but seem to fall short nearly every time. All I can say is that God must be doing something pretty darn big, but I don’t know what exactly. What I do know is that this year has been a character building year for me. Other than that, I have no idea what the future holds. All I do know is that some things have to change. The burdens must become lighter as I move toward the end of this year and into next. My goal at this point is to hang in and hang on to see what God has in store.